


The pregnancy with my first daughter was not planned, but we were happy about the news nonetheless. Soon, however, I started to feel unwell: I was confused, very tired and exhausted; I felt nothing, as if I had no emotions. I talked about it openly, but no one seemed to really understand me. Yet I wasn't that unhappy about being pregnant... it was all a mystery to me. Two months before the due date, my father died unexpectedly. It was terrible for me to lose him, I was heartbroken and sad. The grief penetrated that emotional fog: it hurt a lot, but even though it was pain, I finally felt something again. I was even more tired and exhausted, and my midwife signed me off work so I could rest before the birth. The birth was long and difficult, but once the baby arrived, I finally felt like my old self again. What joy! Thanks to the love hormones, I felt truly uplifted.